Time flies when you're not prepared...

Ok, so it's not that we aren't prepared, it's that we still have so much left to do to Paul and Melissa's yard. We went over to their house to start planning what we want to accomplish and I think I spent more time playing with Malachi.


How can you resist? Too cute :)
Two more months exactly till my wedding.
Whoa...
I can't believe how many wonderful people I have in my life. So many friends and family doing what they can to make me and Jess feel special. We feel so loved :) You guys are awesome!
And holy crap! Our guest list is almost up to 200, and we could have kept going.
There are some people who are no longer a part of my life, and they are definitely not missed. I found out some things after the fact that I wasn't aware of and I am now ecstatic that they are gone. And I wish I could take back all the nice things I said to them, but have no desire to ever speak to them again. I don't need those deceptive people in my life.
I know I am not the easiest person to be close friends with (I have to have my alone time, I have a hard time trusting people, etc.) but those who understand that that is just the way I am are friends worth having.
And apparently, I have a lot of them :)
I had an amazing bridal shower that I was apprehensive about at first because I don't feel comfortable making people buy me presents, but it was a lot of fun. Rachel, Melissa, and Valerie put it together at my Mom's house. Thank you everybody!!! Unfortunately we had to change the date because of the weather, so not everyone could attend, but I think it was for the better. I don't think I could have handled many more people. I'm trying so hard to get used to being the center of attention. Meh.



My amazing friend Kellie helped me with the bouquets and the corsages and they are so much better than what I imagined. Thanks Kellie!! You are so talented, my friend!
Sorry, I really want to show them off but I don't want to give away too much so no pictures until after the wedding.
The same goes for the decorations, party favors, and other stuff we have planned. Let's just say that we have a lot of surprises up our sleeves and it will definitely be a lot of fun.
People seem very curious about our Alice in Wonderland/homemade theme. Hee hee! You never know what you might see! We're silly that way ;)
Everyone seemed to love our wedding invitations (I can post pictures of them because they have already been sent). Jess and I (well, mostly I) designed them. Not too much lovey dovey (that's just not our style) and lots of humor and mischief. Awesome.






The back of the cards:


We made these golden tickets for the people who are attending the ceremony. It would be way too much to have everyone there, so we're inviting immediate family, close friends, and people who are traveling from other states or countries. We wish we could have everyone there, but the yard would just be too crowded.
Yay! That's about all for now.

It's hard to deal with things you can't change

I am sad. A person I considered a good friend has pushed me out of her life.
There were certain issues we had that she wanted to talk about, but I didn't think it was such a good idea. I tried to make it clear that I wasn't opposed to having talks at all, just not a talk where we point out each other's flaws, make each other feel bad, and then get in a huge argument.
I was trying to save the friendship.
She isn't good with criticism. I've tried before. She doesn't respond well to it. And I didn't want to hurt her.
It almost seems as though she had decided awhile ago to be done with it. All of a sudden she thinks that just because I am not willing to "fight" (which is essentially what it would come down to) or talk, that means I don't want to work on the friendship. You cannot convince her otherwise. She just won't believe it.
It's really hard to talk to someone when they don't believe what you have to say. If you tell her she's being unreasonable, she gives you 5 reasons why she isn't.
I didn't want our friendship to end and even went so far as to tell her I was willing to have the talk with her (even though I knew she wouldn't like it) because that's what she wanted to do. I was trying to make a truce. I was trying to compromise for her.
She told me that I'm just flip flopping and she can't trust what I say. Now I am a flip flopper because I was trying to give her what she wanted?
I give up. No matter what, I'm going to end up the bad guy. She obviously doesn't want me in her life. She kicked me out of her wedding and now I can't even be friends with her fiance. That makes me sad.
Well, I'm sorry. I wish things could be different. I guess there's nothing I can do now.
I wish you well...

"Hallowmas" - Scare people and get presents

I had an extremely busy weekend full of decoration making, trying on my wedding dress, and the "Santaland Diaries." I can't show a picture of the dress or certain people might see it. Sorry, you'll just have to wait!

I also got to do something that I've been wanting to do for a long time...I got to bake!!! Yay!!

I made these:

They are orange scones with a glaze. They were pretty yummy. I might have to make some more tomorrow.

I got the recipe from here but I altered it slightly:

http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Simple-Scones/Detail.aspx

Baking makes me happy :)

Here's a picture of my adorable nephew Malachi in a hat that I knitted for him:

He a cutie pie and I love those chubby cheeks! But the hat is getting too small. I'll have to make him another one.

So Jess and I decided to put up our Christmas tree, but as stated in a previous entry, we are sort of making our own holiday this year. We are extremely broke right now (especially due to our upcoming wedding and a tardy Excel bill that hadn't come for five or six months and we called three times trying to get them to send us a bill) and we are also extremely sick and tired of Christmas starting in October instead of December like it's supposed to. Not to mention all the Christmas songs that we are forced to listen to for three months straight and the horrible commercials. Since when do people buy eachother cars for Christmas?!? Well, except for rich people.

Here's our first Hallowmas present:

All this commercialism has gotten way out of hand. I personally don't know anyone who has gotten a brand new car or computer from Santa. Seeing all those commercials just makes us feel bad because we really can't get much for our loved ones this year.

But that isn't supposed to be the point of Christmas, right? It isn't supposed to be so much about the presents, it's supposed to be about spending time with the ones you love. And your family (ha! Sorry, that was just a joke). And if you are of the religious persuasion (which we are not), apparently Jesus is the reason for the season, not a brand new Blu-Ray disc player. It really annoys me.

And one other thing which I am pretty sure isn't just me, I am so sick of red and green and the traditional symbols of Christmas: Santa, Rudolph, Bells, Holly, etc. I know I am not the only one because I have seen all different color combinations of wrapping paper at the stores with polka dots and stripes instead of Christmas trees or Santa.

Jess and I are making a holiday that we like to call, "Hallowmas." Since Christmas has kind of taken over the whole last quarter of the year, we've decided to extend Halloween instead and make it three months long. This is awesome because we can keep the Christmas tree, but have scary decorations if we want and candy. And presents. And scary movies. And Christmas movies like "Elf."

The color scheme we decided on is black, red, blue, and purple. What we did was took a bunch of polymer clay and made our own ornaments. Some of them we kept from last year, though, because they are blue. I tied purple, black, and white ribbons to the Christmas lights.

Here's a scary cone guy I made inspired by this lady http://www.theholidayqueen.blogspot.com/

He's sparkly!

The garland I crocheted with leftover red eyelash yarn and black acrylic yarn.

The topper is a tophat that I crocheted.

Here is our wreath:

Mr. Sprite is playing Santa:

I don't know if we'll do much more. Maybe next year.

I really need to get going on the wedding stuff again. I managed to finish my March Hare with the help of my lovely painting teacher/fiance:

I think he needs a spear or something like it that has a club on it. Then he'd be complete.

Last Sunday, we went with Jess's Aunt Connie and Uncle Boggie (not his real name)


to see "The Santaland Diaries." http://www.bugtheatre.org/calendar/default.aspx It was pretty good, and I recommend it to anyone who likes dark humor.

Now I must go finish crocheting coasters for my co-workers.