It's hard to deal with things you can't change

I am sad. A person I considered a good friend has pushed me out of her life.
There were certain issues we had that she wanted to talk about, but I didn't think it was such a good idea. I tried to make it clear that I wasn't opposed to having talks at all, just not a talk where we point out each other's flaws, make each other feel bad, and then get in a huge argument.
I was trying to save the friendship.
She isn't good with criticism. I've tried before. She doesn't respond well to it. And I didn't want to hurt her.
It almost seems as though she had decided awhile ago to be done with it. All of a sudden she thinks that just because I am not willing to "fight" (which is essentially what it would come down to) or talk, that means I don't want to work on the friendship. You cannot convince her otherwise. She just won't believe it.
It's really hard to talk to someone when they don't believe what you have to say. If you tell her she's being unreasonable, she gives you 5 reasons why she isn't.
I didn't want our friendship to end and even went so far as to tell her I was willing to have the talk with her (even though I knew she wouldn't like it) because that's what she wanted to do. I was trying to make a truce. I was trying to compromise for her.
She told me that I'm just flip flopping and she can't trust what I say. Now I am a flip flopper because I was trying to give her what she wanted?
I give up. No matter what, I'm going to end up the bad guy. She obviously doesn't want me in her life. She kicked me out of her wedding and now I can't even be friends with her fiance. That makes me sad.
Well, I'm sorry. I wish things could be different. I guess there's nothing I can do now.
I wish you well...

"Hallowmas" - Scare people and get presents

I had an extremely busy weekend full of decoration making, trying on my wedding dress, and the "Santaland Diaries." I can't show a picture of the dress or certain people might see it. Sorry, you'll just have to wait!

I also got to do something that I've been wanting to do for a long time...I got to bake!!! Yay!!

I made these:

They are orange scones with a glaze. They were pretty yummy. I might have to make some more tomorrow.

I got the recipe from here but I altered it slightly:

http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Simple-Scones/Detail.aspx

Baking makes me happy :)

Here's a picture of my adorable nephew Malachi in a hat that I knitted for him:

He a cutie pie and I love those chubby cheeks! But the hat is getting too small. I'll have to make him another one.

So Jess and I decided to put up our Christmas tree, but as stated in a previous entry, we are sort of making our own holiday this year. We are extremely broke right now (especially due to our upcoming wedding and a tardy Excel bill that hadn't come for five or six months and we called three times trying to get them to send us a bill) and we are also extremely sick and tired of Christmas starting in October instead of December like it's supposed to. Not to mention all the Christmas songs that we are forced to listen to for three months straight and the horrible commercials. Since when do people buy eachother cars for Christmas?!? Well, except for rich people.

Here's our first Hallowmas present:

All this commercialism has gotten way out of hand. I personally don't know anyone who has gotten a brand new car or computer from Santa. Seeing all those commercials just makes us feel bad because we really can't get much for our loved ones this year.

But that isn't supposed to be the point of Christmas, right? It isn't supposed to be so much about the presents, it's supposed to be about spending time with the ones you love. And your family (ha! Sorry, that was just a joke). And if you are of the religious persuasion (which we are not), apparently Jesus is the reason for the season, not a brand new Blu-Ray disc player. It really annoys me.

And one other thing which I am pretty sure isn't just me, I am so sick of red and green and the traditional symbols of Christmas: Santa, Rudolph, Bells, Holly, etc. I know I am not the only one because I have seen all different color combinations of wrapping paper at the stores with polka dots and stripes instead of Christmas trees or Santa.

Jess and I are making a holiday that we like to call, "Hallowmas." Since Christmas has kind of taken over the whole last quarter of the year, we've decided to extend Halloween instead and make it three months long. This is awesome because we can keep the Christmas tree, but have scary decorations if we want and candy. And presents. And scary movies. And Christmas movies like "Elf."

The color scheme we decided on is black, red, blue, and purple. What we did was took a bunch of polymer clay and made our own ornaments. Some of them we kept from last year, though, because they are blue. I tied purple, black, and white ribbons to the Christmas lights.

Here's a scary cone guy I made inspired by this lady http://www.theholidayqueen.blogspot.com/

He's sparkly!

The garland I crocheted with leftover red eyelash yarn and black acrylic yarn.

The topper is a tophat that I crocheted.

Here is our wreath:

Mr. Sprite is playing Santa:

I don't know if we'll do much more. Maybe next year.

I really need to get going on the wedding stuff again. I managed to finish my March Hare with the help of my lovely painting teacher/fiance:

I think he needs a spear or something like it that has a club on it. Then he'd be complete.

Last Sunday, we went with Jess's Aunt Connie and Uncle Boggie (not his real name)


to see "The Santaland Diaries." http://www.bugtheatre.org/calendar/default.aspx It was pretty good, and I recommend it to anyone who likes dark humor.

Now I must go finish crocheting coasters for my co-workers.

All work and no play makes Cori a sad panda

Not much new on the crafting front because I've been working on nothing but the flowers for my wedding. I'm getting close to being done, though. I have about two and a half bouquets left to make and five boutineers (which involves just one flower), so I'm almost done!!! YAY!!!!

Here's what I have done so far:

It's my little crocheted garden.

But I've decided to take a teeny break because of the upcoming holiday, "Hallowmas" (read previous entry for details).

I've managed to make a deal with a few people (who are also hurting for money) that we will not get eachother anything for Christmas (as all you traditional Christmasy people call it) and just enjoy eachother's company, the way it's supposed to be.

As for the rest of my peoples, I have no freakin' clue what to do. Except for one. And I don't think she will read this so it's probably okay to share. But just in case:

***WARNING FOR RACHEL SLISKO***

Do not read this or it will ruin the surprise!

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Ok, I think it's safe now.

She likes the show "Firefly" and the movie they made based off of it, "Serenity," and I just happened to find this:

It's a "Serenity Illusion Scarf"!!! Yay!!! Illusion scarves are awesome because if you just look at it straight on, it just looks like stripes, but if you look at it from the side (like on the picture), you can see a hidden picture. I made a similar one for myself with alien heads. Here's where you can find the pattern for the "Serenity Illusion Scarf":

http://docs.google.com/View?docid=ddc3xndf_0dz359fgx or

http://spreadsheets.google.com/pub?key=phP32_Qt6sw8SHZZf4lwcVw

It's nice to be able to knit for a change. I was starting to get crochet-ed out, if that's possible.

As for my sanity, it's starting to wear thin. I think I need to bake something. Maybe this weekend.

I'm having a hard time getting out of this lazy mode that I got into when Jess and I went to Arizona for Thanksgiving. The only thing I could work on out there was the illusion scarf, and I can only work on that for so long. It doesn't help that I'm not feeling really well right now. Oh well. It'll pass.

I was really glad I got to go this year. It's nice to be able to see family that you haven't seen in years. Jess and I have been together almost ten years and the only family on my Mom's side that he's gotten to meet (prior to Thanksgiving) was my Grandma and my Uncle Kent and Aunt Gail.

Here's Kent picking on me:

This time he got to meet two of my cousins, Josh and Shane, and my Uncle Curt. We both got to meet Shane's new wife, Roxanie (sometimes Shane calls her Roxie).

From left: Roxie, Curt, Shane, and Josh.

We had a lot of fun and ate a lot. Curt is hilarious and kept us all entertained. He's missing part of his pinky finger, so he's able to do this and make it look real:

My Dad took Jess and I to the Arboretum. It was beautiful there:

It was fun, but it's always good to come back home.

But it's hard to get out of that lazy mode. There is so much that I need to get done but all I want to do is play videogames and be lazy. Oh well, I get there eventually.

I better get some work done. Have a good day!!