Gifts from the heart

We love our friends. They are awesome. They have helped us out so much that we wanted to do something special for them.
Our friend, Viet, is making our wedding bands and is also going to be our "flower girl" even though he is a 29 year old man.
He is also a big fan of the show "Futurama." So I decided to crochet him "Dr. Zoidberg":
I think he turned out really adorable. I might just have to make myself one, too ;)
Our officiant is our friend Dustin who happens to be fond of "Star Wars." What does one make a "Star Wars" fan? Why, a crocheted Boba Fett, of course!
I'm such a nerdHere's his jetpack:
That's pretty much what I've been working on. All my free time goes towards crocheting. And I love every minute of it ;)

Time flies when you're not prepared...

Ok, so it's not that we aren't prepared, it's that we still have so much left to do to Paul and Melissa's yard. We went over to their house to start planning what we want to accomplish and I think I spent more time playing with Malachi.


How can you resist? Too cute :)
Two more months exactly till my wedding.
Whoa...
I can't believe how many wonderful people I have in my life. So many friends and family doing what they can to make me and Jess feel special. We feel so loved :) You guys are awesome!
And holy crap! Our guest list is almost up to 200, and we could have kept going.
There are some people who are no longer a part of my life, and they are definitely not missed. I found out some things after the fact that I wasn't aware of and I am now ecstatic that they are gone. And I wish I could take back all the nice things I said to them, but have no desire to ever speak to them again. I don't need those deceptive people in my life.
I know I am not the easiest person to be close friends with (I have to have my alone time, I have a hard time trusting people, etc.) but those who understand that that is just the way I am are friends worth having.
And apparently, I have a lot of them :)
I had an amazing bridal shower that I was apprehensive about at first because I don't feel comfortable making people buy me presents, but it was a lot of fun. Rachel, Melissa, and Valerie put it together at my Mom's house. Thank you everybody!!! Unfortunately we had to change the date because of the weather, so not everyone could attend, but I think it was for the better. I don't think I could have handled many more people. I'm trying so hard to get used to being the center of attention. Meh.



My amazing friend Kellie helped me with the bouquets and the corsages and they are so much better than what I imagined. Thanks Kellie!! You are so talented, my friend!
Sorry, I really want to show them off but I don't want to give away too much so no pictures until after the wedding.
The same goes for the decorations, party favors, and other stuff we have planned. Let's just say that we have a lot of surprises up our sleeves and it will definitely be a lot of fun.
People seem very curious about our Alice in Wonderland/homemade theme. Hee hee! You never know what you might see! We're silly that way ;)
Everyone seemed to love our wedding invitations (I can post pictures of them because they have already been sent). Jess and I (well, mostly I) designed them. Not too much lovey dovey (that's just not our style) and lots of humor and mischief. Awesome.






The back of the cards:


We made these golden tickets for the people who are attending the ceremony. It would be way too much to have everyone there, so we're inviting immediate family, close friends, and people who are traveling from other states or countries. We wish we could have everyone there, but the yard would just be too crowded.
Yay! That's about all for now.

It's hard to deal with things you can't change

I am sad. A person I considered a good friend has pushed me out of her life.
There were certain issues we had that she wanted to talk about, but I didn't think it was such a good idea. I tried to make it clear that I wasn't opposed to having talks at all, just not a talk where we point out each other's flaws, make each other feel bad, and then get in a huge argument.
I was trying to save the friendship.
She isn't good with criticism. I've tried before. She doesn't respond well to it. And I didn't want to hurt her.
It almost seems as though she had decided awhile ago to be done with it. All of a sudden she thinks that just because I am not willing to "fight" (which is essentially what it would come down to) or talk, that means I don't want to work on the friendship. You cannot convince her otherwise. She just won't believe it.
It's really hard to talk to someone when they don't believe what you have to say. If you tell her she's being unreasonable, she gives you 5 reasons why she isn't.
I didn't want our friendship to end and even went so far as to tell her I was willing to have the talk with her (even though I knew she wouldn't like it) because that's what she wanted to do. I was trying to make a truce. I was trying to compromise for her.
She told me that I'm just flip flopping and she can't trust what I say. Now I am a flip flopper because I was trying to give her what she wanted?
I give up. No matter what, I'm going to end up the bad guy. She obviously doesn't want me in her life. She kicked me out of her wedding and now I can't even be friends with her fiance. That makes me sad.
Well, I'm sorry. I wish things could be different. I guess there's nothing I can do now.
I wish you well...